When my son was diagnosed, I lost myself.
My once strong, capable body, one that was winning shows, eating
exceptinoally well, training superbly, fell apart.
I was diagnosed with chronic fatigue, fibromyalgia (I still have to manage this one), severe depression, panic attacks. I truly didn't want to live.
Especially if it meant living through that
bodily hell for the rest of my life. The only thing that kept me going was not wanting to leave my son alone, in this world, with his diagnosis that would slowly rob his body of its use over time, one muscle at a time. And I am stubborn, about as stubborn as they come...I wasn't going to let God (yes, I blamed God at first) or Life take me out.
But I sat in that body
pain, that emotional turmoil for 8 long, hard years. I simply could not come to terms with my son's diagnosis of Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy, diagnoese at 5 years old. A disease with no remission factor and no cure.
He lost the ability to walk at 10, then the ability to feed and clothe himself at 16. And on and on it goes, never letting
up...
And yet, I am strong, healthy, exuberent over life and all it offers. I am peaceful and accepting...
When did the shift come? After I did the Work.
I found the people, the mentors. I paid the price. I dug in (I had nothing left to lose, right?) I had to RECRAFT my thinking, my beliefs, to shift up my emotional landscape, and move into living IN THE FUTURE, as I wanted to live.
THIS is why it is so important that I work with women who are truly, really,
wanting to shift. They KNOW they want a great bod, awesome health, great relationship wtih food, but it evades them.
They DIET year after year. They fail year after year, and that feeds the Shame / Guilt cycle they fall into and then live in for years into the future. They have lost their Joy (and some tell me they never really felt absolute joy in their
life).
They feel hopeless, unworthy... Is this all due to excess weight and poor food habits? Or due to ageing and hormonal shifts? Or because they are unmotivated to exercise and train as their body needs? No. It's because their Inner World has not been tended to. Because we weren't taught this in school, or by our
parents.
We were not taught how to live from our Authentic Self, unbridled and excited by life, courageous and firm in our convictions, living a rich, deep life. And the body and the habits become the outcome...we 'lose' ourselves, somewhere after 40.
Life becomes full of challenges and stresses. We are taking care of everyone else. We are tired, lifeless, and we see life spinning fast and away from us. And any attempt at reining in our food (the food and bingeing is our only joy at times...) and moving our bodies feels like WORK. In a life already filled with so many duties.
It doesn't
have to be this way.
It requires a SHIFT from within. A change in our patterns, our conditioning, our belief system. An upgrade of our computer's Operating System, if you will.
THAT is the deeper work, and THAT is the reason I do what I
do.
Because I AM you. I KNOW of life's challenges, the sorrows, the heartbreak. But I also know of the imminent joy in life, and how we can step into every day, regardless of the circumstances, and be thankful to be alive. And I feed and move my body with self love and care. And THIS helps me to Master what life will throw at me, at
us.
Because it always will. Don't take it personally. It's not about you. And life is not out to 'get you'.
But unless we shift our temperament, build a stronger belief system and an expanded self identity, we WILL NOT create a strong
physiology, and we willl NOT tend to our food and our body with respect and care. That must be our first priority.
If you just want to know about calories or macros....if you think that's what it's all about, then that's fine. But that's not my coaching style. But if you want to live a deep, rich, purposeful life, and bringing forth your light, your joy, in a bosy that
you treasure and love from this day forward (and living from this place nourishes your children, your family from the deepest, most beautiful place), then we can consider working together.
The 6 month Mastery Lifestyle Program for 40+ Women is changing bodies and lives. It is unlike anything 'out there' (and that is precisely why I crafted it, because what I needed to
live deeply, joyfully, to learn to master my body and health amidst my son's dire diagnosis and the on-going challenges that comes with ageing), it simply was not there.
There was no safety net, no pocket book, no teachings or lessons to grab ahold of.
Never ever give up. Know there is another way to live, to get healthy, and to THRIVE.
Much love,
